Here’s where shit gets a little tricky. Shortly after signing with FalconStudios.com I totally fucked up. Actually fucked up is a huge understatement. I let alcohol, drugs, and my emotions get the best of me and I physically assaulted my boyfriend at the time @BobbyHartXXX leading to my arrest. Needless to say that was the last time I ever saw bobby. Upon my release from jail I went through a deep depression almost committing suicide. If it hadn’t been for my best friends @CoolTomPix, @FabScoutHoward, @GioCaruso, and believe it or not @FabScoutMatt I would have went straight to my San Diego apartment and drank drano till either I was about to pass out or till I couldn’t take the pain anymore when then I would have taken my 357 magnum snub nose and painted my walls with my brain. I’m not looking for pity or attention from this part the reason this is a little graphic is because this is what I had visioned in my head and what I was going to carry out. Reluctantly I didn’t go through with it.
This is the first time Ryan Rose writes about what happened at The Phoenix Forum last year.